First off I want to say that I have not posted on these boards in years, although I come back from time to time and lurk around, read, maybe respond.

I'm feeling really alone tonight. Lately really. I have been crying over every little thing and have been lashing out at my husband accusing him of cheating; although he has given me no reason to believe he has been. But my insecurities are driving us both mad.

Like a good little girl I go to see my T once a week and lately Im back on the downward spiral. I hate it. All I want to do is retreat to my comfy cave and stay there for a while.

I have been at this depression thing for a while, 7 years on meds so far and there is no end in sight. Im just getting worse. My life passes me by each day and I do nothing to cease any opportunity to make myself feel better.

As sad as this sounds, all I have is my husband. He is my best friend. Without him; I couldnt even imagine my life. He just is part of me. So him going out tonight leaves me feeling abandoned, alone, left behind. I'm just feeling so insecure and I have no idea where it's coming from.