Yeah, I kinda felt that way writing it.

If you'd like to gauge against my reaction - I feel like that would give T way too much power over me. I'd feel weak and needy. That is TOTALLY unacceptable. It is incredibly important to me to feel like I don't need anyone, and especially important for me to feel like I don't need T. That would embarrass me. He's supposed to be some neutral third party helping me, not some object of a bizarre obsession.