My main thing that I can't get out of my head lately is why can't I keep a relationship or a man? Either I can't stand them and I don't want to be with them or the good ones I sleep with or like so much I seem to push away. I realise sleeping with them isnt a good idea so ive stopped.. but now that ive stopped im not getting layed and i dont have any guys.. Even the guy i really like im not sleeping with and yet hes not intesrested but he likes me alot as a friend? WTH! WHAT AM I DOING WRONG!? Why can't I keep a relationship? Why do I feel like I try to hard? And when i dont try at all nothing happens either? AM I broken? Is something wrong with me? Seriously! I don't want to be alone any more.. I want a relationship.. I want a role model for my kids.. someone they can look up to.. Why am I so stuck on a relationship? I keep saying oh heck with it i wont look any more and i dont need a man but yet I can't get it out of my head. I cry at night cause im so lonely.. I have my kids.. Why isn't my life good enough? One minute it can be the next im in tears cause im lonely! WTH!!!