...and to try practicing *when it is needed to apologize* i'll just update you all without saying 'im sorry'. Ive been in the hospital since last week thursday, had a whole pile of tests done, then had surgery on monday. Being sick, having surgery, and now staying in the hospital is not my fault. <<<That is what ive been told and explained, and understand now; this is just what happened, and am now just here...Its kinda nice just being *here* and not worrying. Im also just away from the house, so...again i am just here Thank you everyone for your input and feedback = gently all here