I feel your pain. I swear I'm going through this too. It just hits me at the strangest times and my stomach knots up and I feel like I have to vomit. I see no light at the end of the tunnel at all. I have no one in my life to help, no job, and a divorce in the works that has made me lose my wife. Some days I able to talk myself into feeling better but most times it's this horrible dread that I feel. I try to find the good in my situation but there is none at all. I don't see any hope at all. I need help but I have no one to help me. It all seems so hopeless like why should I keep going if I am doomed to suffer like this. I have no friends and my family doesn't help much if at all and sometimes they just bring me down more. I have a young daughter and she is all I have to keep me going but I find myself thinking that maybe she is better off without me. I cry all the time even now when I am typing this. I can't deal with this roller coaster.

I'm sorry for writing all this on ur post but I wanted u to know that I feel ur pain, literally. Please count yourself lucky to even be employed.