mcl6136 -it does make sense to me what you are saying.
I do not have a feeling of it working yet nor do I have times when therapy does not feel bad. That is what prompted the post. I always leave feeling more awful than before I went in. It does not matter whether it was chatting, or memories, or intense other things or I was angry or I was not having an unpleasant interaction with the therapist. I do not, except when I am very angry and frustrated at what is supposed to be happening, experience the being with the therapist and talking as intense or difficult in terms of me actually talking- even though the therapist will sometimes refer back to the appointment as having been difficult or heavy - I usually do not remember experiencing it as having been particularly so.