Oh Curly! I feel so bad for you! I wish I could wave a magic wand and take your torment away.

You said "i've started crying at random times, sometimes at work. what if someone sees me? what do i say? then again nobody has noticed that anything's off with me. i guess i'm invisible"

You aren't alone there! During my worst times I used to cry at work, too. I kept kleenex at my desk, and just let the tears flow. I noticed that not a lot of people asked what was wrong, and I think it was because they wanted to give me some privacy. (You don't get much privacy in a cubicle on the end of the aisle!) I think others were embarrassed for me. It's kind of awkward to see a grown woman crying, and most people don't know what to do about it. Do you have a space at work where you can get some privacy during a crying jag?

My tears, too, just come for no reason, and I get absolutely embarrassed sometimes at the places where they appear. At the dinner table, because the meat is too tough to chew. On the way home from a great day at the mall. In church, mashed in among a hundred other people. Standing at the sink, doing the dishes. Just random places. It's a pain in the butt, and I don't know how to stop it, but I want you to know you aren't alone there.