I agree with splitimage that it is important that you ask yourself those questions. And a trial of not drinking at all - whether for a week or a month - could help you discover what is the truth.

Not one of us actually wants to ADMIT we are alcoholics - but unless we question and test ourselves and decide to be honest with the results - well, we may well end up on a path that does create chaos that starts to disrupt our lives.

I know that is what happened to me.