(((((EJ))))) I can sympathise with some of what you have written. I am dreading this Mother's Day more than most, as not only am I reminded of the son that I lost but my eldest daughter has just been put back into state care 24/7 (only 2 weeks ago). So out of 3 children I will be at home with my 22mth old. Having no1 daughter back in state care is fuelling a lot of my PTSD- I think I have only been in her room 2-3 times since she has gone, and I see her 7 hours a week.

Altho my mum is still here, we live 100's km awpart and I have never had a close relationship with her so I have never felt like making a huge effort (I know this sounds selfish. I have always done something tho). This year anyway she is holidaying on the other side of the world so I have not thought about Mother's Day for her at all.

I can idtentify with the bankruptcy thing too- I have been bankrupt for just over 1 year, but was not on nearly as high an income, and I have to say that for me it is the best thing my now ex and I ever did. We went from having outgoings each fortnight being more than our incomings to now dealing with cash only, and having no major bills.

I hope that Mother's Day will not be too bad for you, and that maybe you could spend the day just you and your husband, picnic at the park or just quality time together.

All the best xxx