Its funny how a day can start off so hopeful and end in disaster.

Basically this morning my mum agreed i could use her private health insurance to get the right treatment providing my team can't find me any for free.

Then she called them because they messed up my appointment and she wanted to know when i would next be seeing my psych. Anywho long story short, they told her they only refer up to 2 people a year to the DBT team and it can take up to a year to receive treatment.

So now basically i have to wait a year to possibly be referred to this team. What id like to know is what im supposed to do in the meantime, ive been feeling very very down lately - i slept for 16 hours a couple of days ago, i can't eat and im having suicidal and self harm ideation near constantly.

Has anyone else heard of having to wait a year to be referred for DBT treatment? What should i do? i don't really have the energy to fight them, i feel exhausted enough as it is. Im worried im going to feel increasingly unsafe.

My mum doesn't really care what happens to me (trust me this is true but i don't have the energy to explain why) i don't see why its such a big deal for me to go into hospital - she would never have to come see me and we barely see each other as it is. I just wanna get better and go back to work.