((((RiverJ)))) you have to tell the therapist what you just stated here. Sannah's post to you about fear of being with REAL people that are NOT dysfunctional is so spot on.
It IS hard when you know you have a hole in your past and your personal coping skills. A therapist is a person, but a therapist has to become someone you can trust and feel safe with. In order to establish that you have to work on talking about yourself. You don't have to dive into your private stash of past troubles right away, but you SHOULD start talking about your day to day struggles and get used to your therapist addressing some of your daily concerns.

You have to build your trust somewhere, is it hard? Yes, but once you work on building that trust therapy can truely begin to flow into what it is ment to be THERAPY. Each patient is unique to a therapist and they have to get to know you to find the right ways to help you. In order for that to begin to happen, you have to allow yourself to let some of your walls down so the therapist can see what works best for you in therapy.

((((Hugs))))'
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