sometimes i actually wish for something like cancer so i'd have a pain that others could actually understand. heck, i don't even truly understand what i'm going thru. my psychologist has been great, talking to me twice a day and seeing me twice a week. but then again, nothing helps - why am i wasting her time - nothing will make a difference... even if it does get better, it WILL come back - it always does - and each time it surprises me and is somehow worse - which is mindblowing. why is this happening to me? i don't want to do this any more! i can't...