oops! sorry, justdontask, that i got the gender wrong.

still, i must emphasize that you are spending much too much energy working on your relationships with your parents and it seems to be leading to low self-esteem and a loss of interest in your own life to the point that your grades are suffering. not only are your grades suffering . . . YOU are suffering. and, it's going unnoticed by your parents and sibling. you sound unhappy and emotionally distraught. and, the situation between your parents is complex and making your life difficult.

Lemme see . . . you can get 4.0 grades and compete successfully in sports, but you can't bring yourself to talk to a school counselor? Sorry, I don't buy it because it's not that difficult. I don't buy into this self sacrifice stuff. I know the issues are painful and you may shed a few tears. But, the wounds you are incurring can hurt you in the long run. Please, please, please see a counselor as soon as possible.