Thanks ((((((Everyone))))))
I do really like my future daughter-in -law. They've been dating for about 4-1/2 yrs (give a few months???) Anyway. Watched their relationship mature from her being an 18 yr old college freshman, and he a college Sr. to now. She's getting her masters sometime this yr. He's going to be finishing his PhD in NC and she will be taking classes toward hers. Much to be proud of.

LIke you said KD, many strong emotions. I just can't access them. I know what is there, but don't really feel them---does that make sense to anyone??? Everytime I think I am touching a feeling, it gets blocked and some great task gets done--3 hrs of mowing the lawn, house cleaned, laundry done....but NO just being here feeling. No good happy feelings, no sad feelings. Just something far beyond my grasp. Like a shadow or a cloud....

I don't want to miss the wedding like I did my oldest son. I tried to be present, but lost so much of the event.

W_I