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Originally Posted by katie80
Hi. My name is Katie. A little history is that I'm 31 and I've been on disability for anxiety/panic disorder for about 6 years. My dad had it since his 20's so I think it's hereditary. My brother was lucky to have it very much then us.
Anyway, I'm here because I was just wondering if anyone has felt the way I'm feeling now. Which is that I will have months where I'm sort of content (even though I have to live life a little differently than other people), but I'm generally ok. Then what seems like all the sudden I'll have huge bouts of anxiety, stress, major depression and what seems to be obsessing a little over irrational worries. And it could last a few weeks or a month.
I know it will pass, like all emotions do, but I just feel so alone because nobody I know except my dad understands. And I can't talk to him about it really because he just gets upset that I'm upset and he can't help.
I don't know. I'm already sort of isolated with this. And when these waves hit I just feel more alone. Just wanted to see if there were others than feel the same.
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i, too, will be quite content (in the good sense) for months and then have a bad period, though not nearly as bad as many folks here. i am going through a rough time this month after a good past year. i suspect all of the following:
a lot of family deaths happen in various years including my dad when i was a teen
a friend died this month which brings my mortality into question (at least the coporeal)
my job is in jeporady due to forces outside my control
had a cold for 2+ weeks so cant exercise as much
everytime i feel a little better i push too much and relapse
sleep is off which ALWAYS makes me anxious and exercising usually helps instead of drugs but cant do that
i enjoy my solitude during the day except when i feel like this and i get a tad paranoid
i have taken more as needed baby doses of xanax this week than i usually do in a month.
i have a physical in two weeks so i will get more help if necessary.
i just remind myself there is a purpose for this whether i understand it or not. and that took years to "discover".