((((JustDontAsk)))))

I took a lot time and I know the above post is long. But you have genuine concerns and I just want you to know "ASK". Information and knowledge is HOW you find your personal strengths in life. Your parents are not going to answer all your questions for you. Often they simply don't know HOW. You have REAL questions that you deserve to understand. I don't want you to be my age until you finally understand what I am telling you in my above post. People do all kinds of things to fill a personal need that was somehow not met. People BULLY, lie, cheat, steal, hide, are shy, self harm, feel depressed, stuck, are lonely and confused because of a root they don't really understand. However, there is always a root.

This time in your life where your confused is because you have reached a point where you DO have genuine questions and you are at a point where the limitations of your parents ability to answer these deep questions has made you feel a genuine loss, a loss that many your age feel and don't understand, even wonder if they have a right to know. This situation has nothing to do with your personal failure or even your worthiness. This is exactly where children begin to show confusion and can feel a sense of loss and personal failure that they don't understand. Should I ask and do I deserve to know is a very common expression. The answer is, yes, you deserve to know, you have the right to know but, you didn't get ALL the permission you needed from your parents. Not your fault at all. However, the answers are out there, the ones you yearn to understand. And you have every right to make the efforts to learn the answers to your questions. Learning about the human psychie is a must and always remember, knowledge is the real answer and yes, there is a time where parents don't have the answers to your questions. But it really doesn't mean you dont have the right to learn and continue beyond them.

Open Eyes