I struggled with this concept for years. In fact, my mind still wants to fight accepting it.
Alcoholism may not be what you think it is. Often, when talking about an alcholic, images of a disshoveled person sitting on the street comes to mind or of the person who has a drink in their hand and a bottle in the towel closet, one or two under the bed, one hiding behind the books, etc. It is more than often associated as a 'weakness' of the mind and shameful.
Be objective when you think about alcholism and how it may not or may truly appear a concern for you. Alcoholism is a disease that some people have and not a mental weakness. There is no 'choice' in being an alcoholic. Accepting if we have the disease and what we do about it are choices that can be made.
So, taking a look into what alcohlism really is, is essential. It is more than these standard images that come to mind. People don't end up on the streets right away. It takes some time. Stages of a sort. Some move through these stages faster than others. Consider this, if you are at an early stage and get a grip on it now...the better!
I would recommend going to an AA meeting and listening. You would be amazed at how the stories can relate to your own. You are not committed to going every day and forever. Give it a try.
I would drink heavily on occassions. But, because I did not keep alcohol at home, drink at home, drink in the mornings, etc. I didn't think I had a problem despite what the professionals were saying. I argued with them forever until I attended meetings and heard what people were saying.
This disease (addiction) is progressive. Something to keep in mind while you process this information.
And, why drink in the first place? Why do people think they even have to drink in the first place? What purpose does it really serve? Is it even necessary to live life?
And, I don't know if you are taking meds, but that wouldn't be a good ideas to mix if you are.
I now have almost 2 and a 1/2 years of not drinking. And honestly, I love it. There really was no purpose for me to drink. Society sort of created this image for me that having a drink was necessary for 'relaxing'...'blowing off steam from the stressful workday or workweek'. I can assure you that drinking is not necessary at all. Consider why you chose to drink at all.