I reached a point where not only I have no idea what to do, but also where I'm just tired of trying to fight !

Reading this, especially because I'm 21, makes me look like a drama-case, but I can assure you I'm not !

I spent my whole life fighting !
First, it was for my parents .. With teachers as parents and a dad with a huge god-complex (totally objective on that one), nothing was good enough (Lowest grade was B)
My first (and only) love lasted 3 years before he passed away .. It destroyed me, and took me over a year to move on !
I'm studying Economics, don't even love what I do ! I did it because, since my parents refused to pay a dime for my education, it was the only promising option in my country (Morocco) I was able to pick under the constant pressure I'm still under until now .
This is my 3rd year, I'm about to get my bachelor degree, and I came to an agreement with my parents that after I get my degree, I get their support for whatever program I want !
I always wanted to be a therapist ! It's just what I was born to do .. !
And since there are no psychology programs (except a private school with the worst reputation ever), I applied for a public university in France !

Tonight, the answer came negative, because they only accept students who just got graduated 2 years ago max . And I don't see myself doing anything else .

Not to mention that the last thing I want is stay in my country .. I can't be myself in any way possible !

I feel like I'll be stuck in a life where I'll never be happy, and I have no idea what to do !