I know what you mean about loving it when you are in the early stages of manic. I've always hated having to kill a good manic, but the problem is, it can slide out of control so fast you don't know what hit you. Then you have an even bigger problem on your hands.

I hear what you are saying about your husband not liking you on medication, but that is his issue to deal with. Your issue is to take the best care of yourself that you can, so you can take care of those two little kids you have.