Ok, so it HAD been 8 months since I last smoked weed, until the 1st of january, and then the third and the fifth and then yesterday. I told myself it was just for the new year, and then when I first did it, it wasn't that fun because I smoked more than I could handle after not smokiing for so long. Then the other couple of times I guess it was fun. I'm about to do it again but I feel bad., I haven't told my brother or my friend or my ex or my new therapist about this. I think it's nothing, like it doesn't count- it's not continual- If I clean myself up after today then I can donate my red blood cells again in two months, because I last donated in October of 2011 and so you have to wait like 4 months or something- I got clean also to be able to donate blood, it's something I've always wanted to do regularly. Did you know that only 4% of the population donates their blood? Mainly because mostly everyone else can't, whether it high aspirin levels, other medications, drugs, alcohol, new tattoos etc. (One of the head dude started talking to me about that when I was there) Anyway, I'm feeling guilty about it-mainly about not being truthful, but mostly mad at myself for being such a hypocrite. At least I know it'll be out of my system quickly because I'm not a regular user again- Next time it'll be my birthday.