Welcome IamFred to PC

Altho noone here can diagnose you .. You seems to have a history that would point towards Bipolar . My only advice would be to get into to see a psych doctor (pdoc) and a Therapist (T) . Not all Therapists and patients are good fits .. I personally went thru a few T's before I found the one I have now been seeing almost a year.
Medications always seem to be in a state of change what might work this month may not work in a couple months . My T said theres usally a cycle worked out for meds and changing once something is found to help. Little tweeks here and there are the norm for most bipolars .

Its frustrating at times/.... I know for me finally being diagnosed at age 44 has been a relief in some ways but scarey in others .

I hope your able to find the support and love here at PC that i have ,,, Its a place full of wonderful people.

Welcome