...thanks tigergirl

As for why I deserve it, U can look at old threads but long story short she told me to stop using substances and I lied to her and said I did. I have stopped now and had my meds adjusted and I'm better now , not using . But I lied to her and she has a right to be mad, but I have severe issues with people " liking me" and a mommy issue but the things she said were not gentle at all. I'm going to go back I may tell her how much it hurt me ... I mean I knew all that stuff but to tell me as I sit there bawling ... I think T was angry . I'm kinda afraid now about saying the wrong thing or asking something I shouldn't .