Thank you both! Ladybird, you mention that I should talk to my doctor- I'm not seeing one. Do you think I should, or should I try not to make a big deal out of all this and deal with it on my own?
Your reply was so thoughtful and makes a lot of sense. But I wonder- are there people that don't need other people? I used to think that I had schizoid personality disorder, where I don't need relationships and I enjoy my own company over others.
But, perhaps the imaginary friends and yearning to be close to a particular person point otherwise.