So this is something I've strugled with a lot before this but now it's getting to the point where I just want to be able to wake up in the morning. If you don't want to read the long explanation just answer this question please:
What are some ways that you manage to get out of bed?
When I'm depressed and a lot of the time when I'm not I start falling asleep places. I've even fallen asleep standing up at work.
When night comes and it's time to go to bed, I rarely want to. I have better things to do than go to sleep!
But when I do go to bed, I fall asleep instantly and enter a world of vivid and intense dreams. They're always fun, and I love dreaming. It's like I live another life, more colorful, purposeful, and interesting than reality. And I dip in and out from this. For instance, I'll wake up and then go back to sleep and pick up the dream right from where I left off.
I have to set 4 or 5 alarms and even then I still don't wake up. I'll turn them all off in my sleep, even if they're across the room, and next thing I know it's 3 in the afternoon and I was suppose to be up at 10.
I'm getting really annoyed by this. I want to do something with my day, and I want to be able to get up and go places. I want to be able to go to a restaurant for breakfast, or be able to take early morning shifts. I'm worried this is going to start really impacting school, which it already has but not irreversibly so.
I don't know how to wake up. I'm starting to sleep 12 to 14 hours a night now, even though I'm trying to only get 8. And as I am right now, I don't "Feel" depressed. I'm not manic by any standard, but I'm not "depressed". Usualy I will wake up feeling over tired and groggy from too much sleep, but lately I have been awake and peppy and feel better than usual. Actualy, I
do feel better than usual: I don't hurt from too much sleep as I usualy do! I can think clearly and don't have headaches, again usualy from too much sleep.
They've gotten me on Seraquel now, but I take it at 7 and I don't get to sleep until 1am or later. It's been keeping me awake even though it's suppose to put you right out.
My system's messed up but mostly I want to know
What are some ways that you manage to get out of bed? Anything that you do to convince yourself to wake up, or that you find works to get yourself awake?
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