I've thought that for awhile, but I'm afraid after this I have a bad taste in my mouth for Therapy in general. I'm going to go one appt at a time. Funny thing is, anger is an emotion I can deal with from T. My mom hates me and was mean and angry toward me growing up. Is it possible that my mommy issue is causing T issues? T has no biological children and her mom died when she was young, I asked about her having kids ( a personal question ) , she told me about her mom. I think I may trigger T? I've tried to talk to T about this attachment but she never seemed comfortable talking about it. T said she kept me on because if she dumped me it would be perpetrating the pattern I have had in my life, all people I try to open up to leave me because I am too needy and clingy. Is there a needy pill? I'm 38 but around her I feel 15 and the 15 year old is hurt. Maybe her hard stance is supposed to help me break the neediness?

Thank you all for listening to my drama as it unfolds, it helps to talk to people who have " been on the couch " .