god i woke up thismorning with all these miserable thoughts and stomach turning and heart racing and all.i just want all this to stop.i was doing ok wednsday and yesterday.it isnt even about T it is just about every stupid thing that can run through my mind.yes i am scared about if she is going to be angry at my behavior.my husband is home with me again.i know that he is very worried about me but i need to figure this stuff out on my own. i think it is making me feel horrible that he is missing work because of me.and my friend took off yesterday to be with me i havnt hurt myself or anything so i kind of wish they would back off.i have T monday and i hope then they will let me alone.i know they love me but