oops, inappropriate. it was a HUGE step. you should expect to be in turmoil about it. it's like now the floodgates have opened or the dam has burst and you're being tossed around in all this rushing water. that would make you seasick! you were "safe" before, safe and sure but miserable and going down, on a sinking ship. now it's more unknown, but at least you have a chance of being rescued?