Thank you AniManiac for responding. It helped a lot. I have been diagnosed bipolar by two psychiatrists......so maybe I should listen to them. It's such a hard thing to grasp though b/c sometimes I associate it with crazy and I don't want to be that. Anyways, I liked the hope you gave me that I can live a stable, productive life once I deal with my issues. I also like that you said none of us wanted this diagnosis. This forum is really helping me already b/c it shows me that I am not alone. I appreciate you taking the time to respond. It meant so much. Thanks again, berly