rain i'm not turned off by your posts at all and read every one.i completely understand the need to hold on to the good feelings a session may bring.it is so frustrating when it goes away and or if you start to turn it all into something bad.it seems to happen automatically for me a lot.i know for me it helps unbelieveably when i am reminded or it is pointed out that this is hapening.wanting to hold on to good feelings isnt a bad thing.and it is sad when they pass