You really ought to try to see a psychiatrist. It is hard without insurance so many of the meds are expensive. WHen I was changing jobs a few years ago my pdoc gave me samples of my meds until my insurance kicked in. He also gave me a break on his fee. I also recently learned that where I live the local Community Services Board has mental health services and they charge a sliding scale. Maybe there is something like that in your area. As far as meds go I couldn't function without them. As others have said they don't lock you up in the hospital unless you are a danger to self or others or really psychotic