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I read what everyone has written and i am very very sad. i feel as though many of us are drowning in the middle of an ocean. There is no land in sight, no log to cling to, just water water every where. i am struggling to stay afloat. It somehow gives me strength to know there are others out in the ocean too; i just cannot see or hear them. Yet to know some are going to stop fighting and just go to sleep in the cold ocean water, makes my struggle all the harder. i so understand the fatigue, alone-ness, isolation, and hunger.
But i remember the sounds of birds outside my window. i remember laughing so hard it was painful to breathe. i remember when a dog wanted to be with me and allowed me to love it. i do not have a dog but would like to have one. Not sure what the good love feels like, but i know it must be like the sun...warm, enriching and...no words to describe how ... it must be. Well, i guess not everyone will survive. i really hope those that do not make it...i hope what happens next is a relief from all the pain. Personally, i do not think the supreme being will be angry. I think the supreme being knows and will forgive the decision to let go.
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