Thanks guys . I'm sitting in the office right now. I should have taken a darn klonopin. I'm so anxious nervous scared I feel like I'm gonna have a stroke.

Maybe this was too soon for me to do this. I don't know HOW he's gonna react that's the thing. I don't even want to face him . Maybe I can wear my sunglasses in there.

If he does ask me what one I want to start with I don't know!!! The hardest one? Easiest? Omg I feel like I made a big mistake!

If he didn't read the email I'm gonna tell him to forget it. Just delete it. I feel so dumb I can't handle this...like why am I in therapy?? Do deal with things like tHIS!! Yet the time has come and I can't .

I want to wrap myself in a big blanket put on my sunglasses in there and then maybe I can talk to him. Unfortunatley he doesn't have one. Not even a pillow I can hide under a little bit..

I hope our session goes well, I really do. If not I don't know if I can handle it. Since dropping the kids @ school and the drive over here I'm on the verge of tears I'm so scared. How stupid is that? To be so scared over this.

I really need this to work out. It's taking every inch of strength I have not to sprint outta this office & peel outta the parking lot. I'm sorry I'm being such a baby about this I must sound so pathetic. Ughhh