You're far from pathetic and you're not stupid at all; you're human. It is hard to open up and put our heart in there in front of someone else, and so is thinking about doing it!! And the waiting room... oh my gosh! Even when I feel perfectly fine, I feel like I'm gonna throw up; I'm always soooo nervous and it's been more than one year, I trust my t and I rationnally know that nothing bad will happen and that he will be caring like always but there's nothing I can do about it...

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