I'm 29 and have Bipolar, Panic, and BPD (can you tell that was my primary issue at the time I created my profile?). I am 2-4weeks away from having insurance at work, and the grays of the season are really getting to me I think. I didn't realize I was depressed until last night...it occured to me that for the last few days I say Eww when looking in the mirror. Hate it, everything about it. I just upped my welbutrin to a 2nd dose in the day thanks to patient assistance, but I can't wait for it to start helping! I spent some valuable time inpatient 6 years ago, for 28 days, where if you've been to a good facility you know they beat coping skills into you. I also spent 18month in DBT a few years back. What can I do to help this feelings of worthlessness depression? I'm drawing a blank and REALLY hoping that by the time I have my insurance there will be a spot available with a good therapist...This isfrustrating, I'm so close to being able to get help for this but I can't talk to anyone now about it, and I'm kinda freakin out about getting through the next month. I guess that's why this is getting kinda long. My hobbies aren't viably helping at this time, and I just don't journal anymore. I think I used that one all up I've scribbled out so much. What else will help? I'm totally drawing a blank...