Look forward; you are close to getting help. Think positively about that ("It will be okay, I'm going to be getting help in three weeks") and just kind of surf the bad feelings, not engaging with them. You know how you don't like the grays of the season? Well, you don't like the feelings either but what can you do other than wait them out? They won't "hurt" you, just think of things you enjoy doing (curling up with a good library book?) and do more of them. When I can't sleep and am all discombobulated I sometimes get up in the middle of the night and take a nice warm shower and get in clean pj's, etc. Just rearranging myself in that way makes me more comfortable and I feel a bit better? Change your bed and put on clean sheets? You'll feel better, the work of doing the bed changing is good exercise, and you'll feel like you have accomplished something.

If you are having trouble with working in a journal (new notebook and/or special pen won't help?) try finding a self-help workbook on some subject you like? I liked Julia Cameron's The Artist's Way book and working through it.