Today's session was alright. It could have ended better though. We talked about my childhood, and my current goals which wasn't too difficult. We played with my service dog for a little bit. T got a kick out of him. BUT then at the end I got really quiet and depressed out of no where. Nothing T said really mattered anymore and he even said nothing I say is going to take you out of this. I felt bad because he was trying hard , and I just gave up and let the sad take over me.

I was furious with myself after I left. I ended up sending him some emails about how much I hate myself, and am worthless, and hopeless, and he shouldn't waste his time trying to help me because I'm a lost cause.

Well I went home and immediately fell asleep. When I woke up I had one email from T. It was short and simple...he said, "I think your worth it."

Idk why but it totally touched my . No one has ever said that to me, my entire life. He totally disengaged me with that one sentence.

I just wanted to share that.