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Jan 27, 2012, 06:34 PM
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Member Since: Jan 2012
Posts: 356
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Originally Posted by Callmebj
Mindinpieces, I'm talking about your accident. That you have taken all the responsibility
on yourself for it happening. I hope the whole message loaded, because you only replied to the last line of it. I responded to that as I believe this seemed to be the root of your feeling , according to your post here. Maybe I'm missing the bigger picture here, feel free to correct me on this. Hugs, bj
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Thank You for all your comments it took me a while to try and get where you are coming from if that makes sense. I am not sure if you are right I do feel guilty I will admitt that but at the time sometimes I would blame the driver when I was younger as a shame defence of my mistake in what happened.
However the way I feel now is not connected to just the accident. I have hardley done the right thing and been a better person or changed how I am.Nor have progressed in life and done what I should have done by my age.
One comment that really hurts me and gets me all the time is "You of all people should know better".
In other words maybe I hide behind what has happen and use it as excuse from fear of reality and dealing with real world and not just safety of my damaging mind. it hurts less to hurt yourself then to face up to real world and life HOWEVER THIS IS NOT TRUE at all just another misguidence of my thoughts. This is me faceing up to whats really going on, glad thats out.
Thank you again for all your replys and what you have said. I am sorry as all I have done is talked bad about myself and not shown a good person even though you said you don't like it when people talk bad about themselfs. I am sorry if I haven't understood everything you have tryed to put across. I wish you the best and hugs 
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