Talking bad about yourself was an expression of my concern for you. I wasn't angry at all, just kind of wishing you felt better about yourself, because you really are a victim in the car wreck You should not feel badly about what happened in the accident, geez, you were a kid!! It seems this incident may have been emotionally stunting/polarizing for you, and that is just not right. Kids always have their head up their behinds at that age, not paying attention is an absolute normal for a kid at 13. My point Mindinpieces, is that you are not guilty of anything. You were hurt because a driver hit you, and it is entirely their fault....not yours. Every driver should look out for pedestrians, and react to anything while on the road, veering, breaking, whatever it takes not to hit someone.

Now maybe your parents told you to always look both ways...typical of a caring parent. Does a young child always remember all the rules....heavens NO.

Your feelings over this has been a basis it kinda appears for all the other things that's happen since that time. I'm guessing of course, but you lost your confidence and may suffer some trauma from almost being a road-kill. (Sorry had to throw a little levity into this discussion.) I wish I could give you a huge dose of confidence, because yours has been flattened terribly by your self talk or someone else. Wishing the best in life and a quick recovery. Hugs, bj

Oh yes, you should blame the driver!!