I guess I was having several thoughts in parallel there - I know it is easy for me to get so fixated on the next session that it blocks my awareness of what's happening right here and now. Yes that next session is important to me, but if I can notice how it is for me at the present moment, even if what I am noticing is my desire for that session to come quickly, I am "living" in the present and not putting everything on hold waiting for that time with T.

It's not easy, I know that all too well, but maybe it is due to the type of therapy I am doing, but I know my T encourages me to be in the "now" and to just be interested in my thoughts / feelings without judging them.

SD