I haven't looked at the links yet so keep that in mind when you read this.

To net506:

Disclaimer: I'm sorry if this got a bit preachy, long winded, unnecessarily sappy, or self-proclaiming/holyer-than-thou. That is very VERY far from my intentions (and goes completely against my moral compass). You are the ones who makes your decisions and I can not tell you what is right and wrong for you.

My veiw of the afterlife is a bit skewed in compairasine to most people. My religiouse standpoint is very hard to explain as it's not really any definable religion at the moment. I tend to explore and ask questions far to much to be able to comphrtably fit in with any "real" religion. So no, I don't think that you get to do whatever you want in the after life, and I very much do not beleve that we suffer here to make it better there.

I can't understand why He would create us a certin way, and then say you're not aloud to be. It just doesn't make sence to me. And I could be way off on this, and when I die I might jsut find out how wrong I am, but for what it's worth now I just have to trust that God isn't an a**hole and isn't spiteful and sadistic like that.

When I was going through it I definitly thought this was a test. Some days I didn't care, some day I cried so hard just wishing I could be stronger. Some days I just didn't know what to think, especialy after me and Abby broke up. Now I think it most definitly was a test, but I don't think it was a test to see if I could deny myself something. I don't really know what exactly it was actually about, and nor do I think I ever will, but as I know now that God still loves me, and guides me as surely as he did before any of that happened, I have to believe that I passed, and I have to believe that I would be getting much clearer signs now if I hadn't.

Summed up, I'm not going to tell you what to do, or what to believe, I am just sharing my experience. I certainly don't have any advice about how to handle your situation past what I have already given you. I just really hope and pray you don't lose your faith because of it, both because I know how hard it is to wake up and realize that you've lost your connection to the One you thought you could always turn to, and because I don't think God want's that either.

I hope you get through this, I really do. I will pray for you whenever my thoughts drift this way, that you might have strength and wisdom and that you will find the path that is right for you (whichever that is, I don't know). I will pray that your God will be kind enough to hold you when you cry and hurt, and to show you the doors He wants you to walk through when you're ready to stand.

May you be surrounded by Love and Light,
KLove

To unhappyguy:
I hope very much that you are happy now (contrary to your name ) and have found peace in something, whatever that might be. Hope you don't mind, but I'll be praying for you as well. Best of luck to you, and may you also be surrounded by Love and by Light.