Hello,

I'm struggling with A LOT of anger inside me. A LOT. My father passed away two months back, I miss him SO much. I think of him everyday, more so, I think of the time of the funeral and his last days at the hospital. I still feel he's there in his house although I haven't been back to that house since but in my head it still feels he's there. Thats one end.

THe other is this guy that I started seeing right before my dad passed away. We got on pretty intensely, for a month I saw him EVERY day... then all of a sudden we had a fight I yelled at him and he backed off. All this time I felt so bad that I messed up something that I never had felt with anyone else.
Well I find out now, 3 months later, the girl he always said was his sister is actually his gf. So he lied to me. I also found out, that he really played a lot of mind games with me during the time my dad was in the hospital and even after. He told me he'd come see me when I was a mess after my dad passed away, and stood me up. Last week, he still had the balls to message me and ask how i was doing after he stood me up a month and a half ago. I didn't respond.

BUT. I can't let it go. I am so so so angry. SO angry. I don't know if this anger is coming from losing my dad, or this guy, or a combination. I feel like until I don't say stuff to this guy I wont' get rid of the anger. But if i say stuff to him, he will feel a lot better to see that I noticed that he had a gf and that it still bothers me. I don't want to give him that satisfaction.

What do i DO? How do i let go of this anger? I also keep getting sick from lack of nutrition. I'm dealing with grief all by myself. My mom is in another country, I love her but she just doesn't get me. My sisters have always been mean to me all my life, invalidating me always. Please help.

Oh, please no suggestions for a T. Please. Thanks!