Till now, I've had this on and off, vivid memories of him, good,bad,loving and fun. Whenever I try to sleep all this sadness of not being able to be with him, hit me, then the stress of "what am I going to do with mom"? JUst keeps whirling around in my head, if I fall asleep it's wee hours, if I use sleep aid or ativan too late I wake up tired, just wanting to go back to sleep.
I'm lost and just needed to vent.
Thanks for letting me rant on.