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Perhaps...you might want to try shifting your focus. Instead of when will it end...how about what can make this pain easier. The world is always changing even when it feels as if it has stopped and you are permanently stuff in an endless pit of depression. An old therapist helped by teaching me to look at what i could do as oppose to what i could not do or what was getting in the way. Sometimes all you can do is get out of bed long enough to go to the bathroom. That is fantastic. Celebrate with the thought before going back to sleep..."I did something today!". Other days you may feel as though you are trying to make your way through extra thick peanut butter. Everything and nothing is exhausting. Get some movies...whatever you like to watch. Or get some music you like to listen to, and put head phones on and turn the volume up loudly. Visit psych central and scream-write and post here. This kind of shift has helped a lot. Depression can be a chronic illness like arthritis and diabetes.
The diseases do not go away, but when they are more debilitating but you do things that help you cope. If you are in a dungeon cell with no windows and no food and you are afraid of the dark and there is no way out...what can you do? You cry at first. YOU scream. Then you try to find a door. There is none. Lost and tired you sit down on the ground and try to find a way to end it all....while laying on the ground you start picking at the grout holding the large stones together. You start to focus on really removing the grout around one stone. You do not know how long it took but you removed all the grout from one stone and you begin kicking and pushing with your feet and the brick begins to move....What happens next is in the future.
i am sorry Whenwillitend that this was so long. i meant well. i hope it made sense and you can find the help i was trying to give you.
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