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Originally Posted by Callmebj
You are lucky to be free of this jerk. Put all your feelings of the bf down on paper as a letter, be nasty, say whatever you want to say to this jerk. Put it in an envelope and give yourself a week to decide whether to mail it or not.
I am so sorry you are in grief right now for your father.
I'm sure a lot of your feelings right now are tied up in grief for your Dad. If I were you, I think your emotional well-being would be best spent on yourself and the grieving process....after all your Dad deserves your love and emotional energy. Hang a no-vacancy sign out to the jerk...he has no business in your thoughts and
in your life right now. A person who is grieving cannot add a lot of other junk in their life when attending to their sorrow. That's an overload and hitting your head against a brick wall. Hugs, bj
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Thank you so much! That's another part that makes me angry, he comes into my thoughts. i try to let go but then I get angry. SO i feel double angry, 1. at what he did, 2. wasting my thoughts on a jerk like that.
Unfortunately, writing a letter and not sending it to the person has never helped. On the other hand, knowing him. If i write something 1. he will be happy that he got to me and he might see it as a sign of boosting his own ego that I thought of him and 2. he will go around showing everyone he knows (we work in the same industry) about what I wrote to him and will make me seem like the crazy one.
So that's really why I can't send it off to him and if i don't say stuff to him, I can't release this anger. I go to the gym 6 times a week, it doesn't really help. I want some sort of justice. Like I want him to pay, I'm so so so angry. I would never play with someones feelings, especially in a time like this. He'd tell me he's coming to see me, and then not show up. Then, i find out theres that girl that was always there...It feels so much like crap when you have no one, you're grieving, and you trust that one person that has promised you who will be there, and he also doesn't show up. You feel like at the bottom of the ground, more like below the ground. I hate him so much. AND then he has the balls to text me and ask me HOW i am? all the same time while he has his gf up on his facebook display picture?