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Originally Posted by My kids are cool
so, it was something you just couldn't remember, but you finally let go and then did? How did that work? How do you let go? I have only fragments of memories of certain areas of my life, which, combined with abject terror that pops up in reference to certain actions by others, or smells, or whatever, lead me to believe that there is even more gross horrible stuff lurking somewhere in my memories. I cannot, however, access it. How did you do that?
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Let me know if you figure this out... I have a similar concern, in that it's struck both my T and my husband that the way I react to difficult emotions strongly resembles someone who has been through some kind of serious trauma. However, I don't have any recollection of such a thing, and have been coping that way since I can remember. I kind of half-wondered if something happened that pre-dates my ability to remember, or whether I just happen to deal with things in a way that looks like PTSD.
Then I found out (a few months ago) that a family member is actually an abuser (of another family member), and has been allowed to stick around as if everything was just a-ok. Which has smashed my world apart in many ways, but has recalled the worries I had before about a trauma I can't remember. Ugh.