You are currently dealing with a great loss in your life. Please take time and allow yourself to grieve losing your dad. I am so thankful and grateful that my dad is still alive, but I know I will be a total basket case when he is gone.

Please believe that this BF is not the right person for you at this time. Feel angry if you need to - but also realize that anger is a part of grieving. And right now, I suspect you are angry that your dad is gone. NORMAL response.

Take care of yourself. Let the junk of life fall by the wayside for now.