There is no way that I am experienced enough to even suggest a diagnosis, but I think that if you are wanting to know more about the illness you could do your own research on it by looking it up on the web. And, if you find that you are leaning towards the symptoms, I would also suggest looking up sites that discuss DBT which are processes or steps for the BPDer to take to help heal. But, most of all, discuss these thoughts with your mental health care providers.