I'm sad that you are having such a tough time dragonfly2.

Just think soon it will be ground hog day and we will have only a little while til spring. Yahoo.
I have a hard time in winter too. I feel caged in my house, it gets dark at 0 dark 30 and most days are cloudy. So I hang in there by watching for anything that even hints at spring. Today I got my chicken catalogue. that is a spring activity. it helps me remember spring is not far off and I will be able to raise my next batch of chickens.
I hope you feel better soon and that the snow and Ice melt so you can get out around.