I know... I do believe in karma. I guess I'm also angry at the fact that he took part of my attention from my father. Or it could also be that I trusted him during that time (he was in another city then) and i expressed my emotions about my dad in him. I just needed someone to comfort me. I didn't have any support. My mom was going through her own grief and I didn't want to put any pressure on her, and my sisters have always been very indifferent to me. One of my sisters compared my pain to my other sister, saying she probably is gonna have the most trouble with dad going since they live in he same town. ??
So, I just didn't know where to look for support. He didn't give me much support but he did respond to my texts. And then he turned out to be this way, which makes me angry because for 3 months I did put my energy into him, I didn't see him these past 3 months but he played an infinite amount of mind games with me which kept me guessing and thinking and wondering

Now i'm angry that 1. I've been played 2. I felt guilty for something small as shouting at him, when it was him all along lying and he enjoyed making me feel guilty 3. He took my thoughts away from my father 4. he stood me up at a time like this and made me feel like I was at the bottom of the earth. He gave me hope and disappeared.

I guess theres just a double layer of anger in me. ONe from my dad going and one from this guy. The problem is also that we work in the same industry so when i come across people from the industry, I wonder oh do they know him...?

And he's very good at storytelling, so i start getting paranoid, wonder what he told them about me. Because he has told this one girl something, she suddenly cut me off for no reason right after him and I had that small fight. And this i can say with 100% confirmation!