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Originally Posted by BrokenCloud
While I'm not comfortable discussing details, I can say that I've got scars pretty much covering just about every inch of my body that I've ever been able to reach from the time I was a little kid right on up to the here and now.
Therapy has helped quite a bit, but I don't know if I'll ever be able to completely stop even though I try mightily.
One thing I found especially odd is that when I started therapy and it came up, I self-injured more intensely than ever before. Of course, that eventually tapered off, but it was freaky for sure!
Anybody else experience that?
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Yep, when it comes up in therapy it tends to get worse...but it usually comes up in therapy if it has become an issue in my life again so it's kind of a catch-22 thing.
As for where, I have burns up and down both arms and on the backs of my hands, and around my ankle; and I have scars from my scalp to my feet from other forms of SI including cutting. I had never heard of SI when I started, and the relief was so huge and I was so disconnected from everything I never gave the scars a thought or cared about them or what people might think if they saw them. Now I am covered with them, and am so ashamed of them and hide myself even from my children just so they don't see them. Although since I became more aware of the scars I have concentrated on my left upper arm, so while most of the area is scarred it is contained to the one area. And I rarely SI now; intense CBT really helped.